I'm not sure what to say, but come on. You know I feel something strong for you, and I think it's love. When you answer me I was smiling nonstop, my cheeks hurt from so much happiness, I thought, "He knows I exist." Actually I was not sure what to think and how to react, I was amazed and very happy, I can not even explain it I felt in those moments, but I was the girl smiling over the world and happier.
I do not know what to write, and if you see this, I do not know how you will react, because I'm one in 2 million girls, and all you have already written how much they love you, how special you are to each.
You are also very special to me because it was you who made me smile when I thought no one loved me. It was you who made me smile when I felt horrible and alone. It was you who made me smile when I was sad. It was you who made me laugh with your videos and your antics. It was you who made me smile when I thought no one cared about me. And it was God and you made me believe that everything will work out if you try to do what you are afraid. While this is just words on a great phrase, was really what happened.
Christian, I love you, I feel something very strong for you, and I still have hopes that we will meet and maybe have something, I know I am a great fool to think so. Maybe you think that love is just a fan, but it goes beyond that. And I know you do not feel the same for me, I know you do not know me, and that twitter is the only way to talk to you.
And it hurts my heart to think that this is all just imagination, that is not real, much less what might happen. I'm just a girl writing you what I really feel and maybe you do not answer me anymore. But I really wanted you to read and understand me.
Sometimes I look at the stars and think "is he looking at the stars as I?" and I end up thinking that you do not know by now, I know the most on. And all I'm feeling now will be worth it, that everything will be alright. And I pray every day for you and your family, to protect you and may God give you health.
I do not know what will happen over there, maybe I know and have nothing with you, or maybe I do not know. And I hate to be realistic. I prefer to dream and see that this will happen and that in the end will be a happy ending as the tales of Disney. But I also hate to think that I am very in the world of clouds. And create a fantasy that I'm only dreaming.
Sometimes I cry thinking about it all, everything you told me and it will not come back. I do not know how I managed to endure this feeling today that made me smile for so many months, and that made me believe and have hope, I think that I feel today is because it's true.
Christian, I'm sorry for telling this to you, but I'm not holding on to most keep it to myself, you make me well, and I'm not like the others.I will not use you to get another boy, I will not change, because as I learned to accept its qualities I accepted his faults too. I will not trade for Justin, if that's what you think! I think if you love someone, you do not have to exchange it for another.
I do not want you to think I'm doing because I'm not a victim, that everything I wrote is half of what I feel, and I could not write anything because I do not explain everything. I'll be here when you need, and when you do not need too. And you can leave that I will not pursue you, haha.
Look, even you reading this whole text, you might think it was just one more, that I'm just another girl to send you what I feel, or you can smile, I do not know what you will find. But I wanted you to understand that after you read all this you do not block me on twitter, or you can not tell me anything, because as I said before, this is the only way for me to talk to you! I may have smiled a lot with everything you've said to me, but I'm human, I also cried, I cried for thinking that this was all illusion and lies. That this was all imagination. But you know why I have not given up? because I believe! Even if no one else believing.Even though everyone tells me it will not happen. I still believe yes.
With all the love I feel and all the affection of: Raquel :) ♥
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